Dad’s writing

Posted by danleone on September 16th, 2008 filed in my father

The hospice nurse asked my dad whether he was afraid to die and this is what he wrote:

“Adis, when I was well, death was all I thought about and it made me scared. Now, you see my condition; I don’t speak, I can’t eat or drink, I can’t walk and all the other things I can’t do. To me, death is the best solution.”

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13 Responses to “Dad’s writing”

  1. terri Says:
    September 16th, 2008 at 9:04 pm

    The ache I feel having read these words is a mere fraction of what you must be feeling. I hope that there is a small amount of comfort in the fact that it is not fear that your father is feeling.

    terri’s last blog post..I wonder what they do when the roll of toilet paper runs out?

  2. Lilacspecs Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 1:26 am

    Your father is a very wise man.

    Lilacspecs’s last blog post..“Dip the apple in the brew. Let the Sleeping Death seep through.”

  3. Maggie's Mind Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 2:03 am

    My heart breaks having been in your shoes too similar to yours. Odd how ALS takes different abilities away in a different order but still manages to create a situation where death seems like a better alternative. Hugs to you and your family.

    Maggie’s Mind’s last blog post..Weekly Winners Sunday 8/3/08

  4. Fox Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 7:48 am

    I’m so sorry Dan. My heart hurts for you. If you ever want to head out to the range, and vent some frustrations…I’ve got a .45 with your name on it. It won’t solve anything, but it sure takes your mind off of things for a little while.

  5. paisley Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 10:07 am

    your father is an amazingly wise man…

    i can only hope that i can mirror that wisdom when i find myself someday in a position similar to his..

    paisley’s last blog post..political freak show

  6. Chuck Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 3:55 pm

    That is very heartbreaking on many levels. I think of you and your family often.

  7. L'uragano Says:
    September 17th, 2008 at 9:22 pm

    Dan, no words can express my sorrow for both of you; peace to you both. You both are incredibly brave. (it’s me brenda, by the way…)

    L’uragano’s last blog post..For: Some Old Geezer

  8. Tara R. Says:
    September 19th, 2008 at 3:03 pm

    That is truly heartbreaking. I pray that you all find peace.

    Tara R.’s last blog post..To sleep, perchance to dream

  9. sophie Says:
    September 20th, 2008 at 8:03 am

    It appears that his mind is strong in ways that his body is not. I am thinking of you all. You will find what you need to deal with this when it is time.

    sophie’s last blog post..Ike Sucks–but I have the best husband in the world

  10. meleah rebeccah Says:
    September 21st, 2008 at 7:35 pm

    Oh….this brings tears to my eyes. Im soooooooooo sorry you and your father are going through this.

    meleah rebeccah’s last blog post..Food Allergies = Depressed

  11. Missives From Suburbia Says:
    September 27th, 2008 at 12:23 pm

    He’s making peace with death. I suppose that is the best one can hope for as one reaches the end of life.

    I’m sorry, Dan. It’s utterly heartbreaking to read that in his own hand.

    Missives From Suburbia’s last blog post..Break Time

  12. Marissa Says:
    October 5th, 2008 at 10:51 am

    I had no intention of crying today. His words are beautiful; yet heartbreaking. This moment leaves me in tears.

    Marissa’s last blog post..Silent Sunday

  13. conversemomma Says:
    October 23rd, 2008 at 5:29 pm

    Thanks for the facebook friending. It led me here. I can not imagine this moment without the gasps of breath and clutching of my heart. I am sorry for you both, and vow to try and do it differently, not live in the shadow of fear. I do not want to see death dancing on my doorstep and realize I have not lived. Thank you for sharing so honestly and so beautifully.

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